The Phony Smile

Sometimes you just have to do it

it's a part of living in the Tribe,

I'm guilty of it 

I've read How to Win Friends And Influence People

but I hate it most of time.  The phony smile

pretending like you are having a good time, when you're not

I don't hate people

most of the time I just wanna be a lone though

and I'm the same with everybody, it don't make any difference: family, friends, coworkers, strangers, etc

I have a hard time feigning happiness, I'm mostly on edge thinking to myself a lot

and the only time I usually feel like socializing is when I drink

which keeps me from thinking so much

without it, I'm so shy

and people hate this,

of course.